Having my parents always at my side, did not made me think that I must have to have better plans for my future because I always depend that they are always with me, helping me with my problems, giving me what I want and comforting me when I need them. But I was wrong, i really must have plans for my future, and be dependent to myself for there will come a time that I have nothing else to lean on.
My mission in life is to finish my studies in order for me to help my parents and pay the sacrifices they have made in order for me to be in school so that I will have a bright future.
Actually, I have so many plans or missions in my life. I want to finish my college right now so that the burdens that my parents are carrying for me will be gone. Because as the eldest daughter in our family and as the eldest grandchild in both my Father and Mother's side, I have the responsibility to be a good model for my brother, sister and cousins. I don't want to be a shame in our family because my Uncles and Aunts and my Grandparents are expecting too much from me, that is why i will strive hard to finish my school because I don't want to disappoint the people who are concerned to me.
After I finish my college, I would really get a job so that I will not be a problem to my parents and so that I can help them in sending my brother and sister to school because as we all know, that is the duty of the eldest child :-).
But honestly, as of now I am really struggling in adjusting myself to the new environment here in Iligan especially that I am far from home, far from my family and far from our church. I miss our church because that is where I used to worship God with the people I'm comfortable to share my problems with. I really like to worship the Almighty Lord because I really love the feeling after doing it, it's inexplicable, it feels like I am already in Heaven. My burdens are gone and I feel cleansed and washed from sins that I feel so happy and all I want to do is smile, laugh, laugh and laugh.
My greatest mission in life is to serve God with all my time, all my heart and all my soul. I want to bring back the lives of the lost who already knew God but did not mind if the things they are doing will make God happy or not. I had a friend who I grew up with, a friend that was partner in walking with God step by step but unfortunately lost her way and turned her heavenly life into a hellish one. It is so painful to see and to hear what she is doing in her life now with the earthly things like drinking alcohol, spending so much time with ungodly friends and boyfriends. I really don't want that all the young people will turn their back from their Creator. That is why, I want to be His servant, to spread His word, and to be an extravagant worshiper to Him.
The only thing I am worried about is, "What if I really get into working my job that I forget what I promised to the Lord?" or "What if I forget what I promised to my parents and relatives?"
But God revealed in Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not into your understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him for He shall direct thy paths." Because God had planned for me what I am in the future. All I need to do is to trust God because He will direct me in the right paths. <3
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